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A Moment By Death

I woke up today only to see an unread SMS.

My friend's ex-gf, whom he recently broke up with,
is diagnosed with brain cancer.

She is about my age. Or 1 or 2 years younger.

It was surreal. The immediate emotions that sunk in.
I've experienced this before. It was a familiar setting not too long ago.

And for a while, I was overwhelmed with...grief for a familiar stranger.
I thought about how her family would respond to the news.

I thought about the things she saw as important before the arrival of the news.
I thought about the things she now sees as unimportant.
They are the same things.

I thought about life. And the hairline crack which I occupy in the timeline.
I thought about the day I will die.
I thought about the promise of God.

It may be a distant future.
It may be a near one.

Oh, the things I worry. I thought about the things I worry. My foolish worries.
I thought about my sins, my pride and everything deep within. My reckless living.
I thought about my days on earth.
I ought to number my days just like Moses did. He wasn't radical, he was simply doing what's wise. I'd better stop being foolish me.

Live a life reflective of your faith, Si'er...so reflective of your faith.
You haven't got time to waste.

I asked God to let me finish his work before He brings me home.

Before I walk through the door which thousands are walking through, everyday.

posted by Si'er @ Monday, December 06, 2004